"I have been driven many times upon my knees by the overwhelming conviction that I had nowhere else to go. My own wisdom and that of all about me seemed insufficient for that day." - Abraham Lincoln.
I'm so thankful that my last few years of intentionally seeking Christ, have allowed me to see Him in such a tangible way - a way that one would sit across the table from their spouse or parent or friend and share their heart's mind. I was listening to Donnie McClurkin's song titled "I need you" last night - and it brought me to tears, as a lot of worship music does when you take a minute to truly immerse yourself in the words being sung. I remember a time in my life when I was afraid to be vulnerable, operating and praying as if GOD didn't know every fabric of my being, every weakness and every fear. Then I experienced true brokenness, when in the words of Abraham Lincoln - "my own wisdom, and that of all about me seemed insufficient for that day." I thank GOD for the times I went to bed hungry, the times I had no place to call my own, the times my heart was broken and the times the loneliness was so thick I needed a chainsaw to cut through it. I am grateful for these, and other dark moments because every single time - GOD's name was glorified. I stand because the GREAT I AM showed up, showed off and reminded me that He is real; He is so very REAL.
Do Lincoln's words in the aforementioned quote sound anything like something you've ever felt; when your own knowledge, capacity, thinking and will power didn't seem enough? Are you going through a trying season that warrants lots of questions on why life is seemingly handing you one bad deal after another? Surrender liberated me. Walking with Christ has shown me so much about submission to His will and acknowledgement of the fact that every card dealt carries a reason far bigger than we can comprehend.
"Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."
- Isaiah 41:10
There is always something for you and I to learn in seasons of excellence, and those of challenges. I got to the end of the road - my road - circa 13 years ago and handed myself into GOD's treatment center. This was the best decision of my life, and the fruits today are plentiful. Surrender isn't weakness people! It's just raising your hand and admitting that you could use a helping hand! If this is you and you need another way, all you need to do is ask. Help is ever present; you just have to call!
The truth of the matter is that GOD already knows that you need help, but is waiting for you to call on Him, establishing heightened levels of intimacy with who He is rather than what He can do for you. His WORD tell us countless times that He will not forsake us, despite our having to endure a thing or two.
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
- Philippians 4:6-7
What follows after surrender you may ask? Sitting in a waiting room isn't the most comfortable of things to do, but until you are alerted to the next best steps, it's the best case scenario depending on your situation. Pray. Prayer with confidence of the fact that the same GOD that did that that "big thing" for you last time will do it again - is the only way to go. Angst usually makes an entrance when we try to do too much ourselves. If the Spirit tells you to be still - be still. He is still GOD and is up to something. Don't try to outsmart the teacher when you are a student in training. Pray, until something happens, employ gratitude and find the lessons that will enrich you. When GOD's ready to release His intended outcome - He will.